A Girl Should Be Two Things: Classy & Fabulous. - Coco Chanel


Sunday, May 21, 2017

Salt Flats Photoshoot

Since we were going out by the salt flats for the Lantern Fest, Kyle and I thought we should take a trip to the Salt Flats and Kyle wanted to take some pictures of me. I am not sure why... I will never be worthy to be a model on his instagram page. He is such a great friend though and likes to make me feel beautiful because he knows I don't really think that I am. He is a solid friend.

So he took some pictures of me and of Heather and Kendal for a little bit before we headed to the Lantern Fest. It was fun. Kyle only edited and sent me a couple of the photos. I haven't seen any of the other ones. Who knows if I ever will. Regardless... here are the ones he did give me. Kyle is a great photographer.

Saturday, May 20, 2017

Lantern Fest - Take 3

I went back to the Lantern Fest near the Salt Flats for the 3rd time! Are you surprised? You shouldn't be. I'm not. I will go again next year too. I would go to the second one this year... but I will be out of the country soo... next year it is. Pretty sure it is becoming my new festival of colors. Year 3... soon enough I will be going on 10 years. Ha ha. Let's not jump that far ahead... I don't like it.

Anyway... every year just gets bigger. More people. More lanterns. It's crazy but it also makes it that much more amazing, that much more beautiful, that much more magical. This festival I heard there were 15,000 people. So there were at least that many lanterns if not more because some people like sending off more than one. Crazy huh? Having the event near the Salt Flats definitely makes it so you can fit a ton of people and have room to grow. So we will see how it goes through the years.

The crew I went with was pretty fun. All Kyle's friends. 2 of them I already knew and the 2 guys are now 2 new friends. More so Tucker... because he rode in my car with me. He was cool though. We did a photoshoot at the salt flats before going to the festival since we were already going to be over that direction. I will post that separately. This post is ALL about the lanterns.

We got there not long before it was time to set the lanterns free. So we really cut it close. I was a bit bummed because we were not sitting close to the stage. Therefore, we couldn't hear the music they were playing with the lanterns were all floating away in the air. It made me so sad because that is one of the reasons why it is so magical! But seriously. I am heavily influenced by music. They should have a good enough sound system and speakers everywhere so everyone can hear and not just the people by the stage... but I'm not in charge. All I know is that next year I will not make that mistake again.

Not only could we not hear the music... but it was also quite windy... to the point where I am surprised they gave the approval for us to do it. Without the music... you heard lots of people screaming trying to dodge open flames from lanterns coming right for them. It happened to me. It was a little bit funny.. but mostly annoying. Oh well. It was still a very magical experience that I loved and will absolutely go back again next year for.

Thursday, May 18, 2017

Confessions of a Brunette on the Internet 375

I already blogged about getting pedicures with my co-workers. After work I went paddle boarding. I was supposed to go with Kyle... but he came late and then it was so Windy I was just getting out by the time he got there. It wasn't worth it. Paddle Boarding in the wind is NO Bueno. So I just went home and chilled the rest of the night. But at least I got out for a little bit right?

Saturday, Rachel wanted to hang out... so I went with her to Ikea so she could pick up something and then I convinced her to come with me and Drew to hang out up Hobble Creek Canyon and sit by the fire and hang out and take pictures. Glad Rachel decided to come. I also already blogged about that so I don't have much else to say about it except that Drew was SUPER weird about the fire. He wouldn't touch it. It was the first time ever in my life that a guy not only didn't take over the fire but not even help out with it. Rachel and I handled it though. We didn't even bring wood. We made that sucked out of scraps that we found laying around. We kept it going for a while too. I thought that was pretty great. When we decided to leave and had to put it out and didn't have enough water... I was the one that crawled down in the dark to the creek to get more water to put out the fire. I always like it when guys so those things and they always have in the past... but apparently I don't need them for any of it. ha ha. j/k... it wasn't anything major, but still good to know I can do it.

Sunday was Mother's day. It started out pretty positive. I tried not to get on social media too much. Sure I know it is about my mom... but it is hard for me to get on and see all of my friends post pictures of them with their kids and say how thankful they are to be mom's. I'm happy for them of course... but I don't need it rubbed in my face since that is something I really want. So I backed off social media. I then went to my parents house for dinner. I had brought treats for my mom and sister and sister in law to say happy mothers day. I didn't expect anything... but Kristy, being the very thoughtful sister that she is wrote me a really nice and thoughtful card... and so did all of her kids telling me happy mothers day and thanks for being a great example to them and spending time with them. That meant a lot. And Jamie, being the thoughtful sister she is... text me thought of me and knows how hard it is for me but that she wanted to wish me a happy mothers day and she was thinking about me and loves me. I really appreciate when people just try to understand my situation and that sometimes it is really hard. I try not to show how much it bothers me because I like to stay positive... but it really gets to me sometimes. So these little gestures mean a lot to me.

That being said... I had a chat with my parents after everyone was gone that lead to a discussion about me not being happy with where I am in my life right now and how I feel stuck and after the long talk with my parents... I left the house REALLY depressed. To the point where I had text Jamie back and she could tell I wasn't doing well and called me and talked to me for a couple of hours trying to help me through it and I cried on the phone and cried myself to sleep. I hate feeling that way. And I didn't snap out of it right away. I'm still not really out of it. I need to make some changes... but I don't know how to make anything that I want to happen... happen. I feel stuck. Not a great feeling. I feel like I have failed as a human being.

Since I was feeling so depressed... I decided to take Jamie's good advice and accomplish a project that had been on my list for a while. One of my goals this year was to become more of a minimalist. So I have been wanting to go through one space at a time and get rid of a bunch of stuff that I don't need and organize the stuff that I keep. So far I had not started anywhere. So Monday after work I tackled my closet that had a lot of random stuff in it including my food storage and camping gear. I ended up getting rid of a ton of stuff and it felt great. And it made me happy to check something off of my list. Amazing what that does for you... or at least for me.

Tuesday I went on a date with a guy I met online. He was WAY more into me than I was him. I am always confused of how they don't pick up on my vibes I am putting down. We had yummy sushi though and had some good conversation after we got past the beginning awkward part. Apparently I put up a wall? I have been told that... but what I really think it is... is that I'm not interested and I am showing it... but trying to be polite at the same time. I am not very good at hiding my feelings soo.... that is more of what I think it is. Like I said, we did have some good conversation, we are just two different people in two different worlds PLUS I wasn't attracted to him... but I think it just made me even less attracted to him. It's fine, that is pretty much what I expected, but I thought I would give it a go just in case. Not a great date didn't help me feel better about my situation and the depression I am in.

Wednesday I went to Reanne's Jazz Band concert... but I already blogged about that. She was great and I am glad that I got to go even though I was faking trying to be happy and in a good mood. I would do anything for my nieces and nephews.

Guess that leaves us with today. I have a co-worker in town from Texas. She is training a few different people on our team to be back-up for her in her different responsibilities. While she is in town... we are all taking turns going out to dinner with her. The first time she came and was getting to know everyone and she herself was being trained on her job... Joe and I went out to dinner with her to Magelby's. This time... me, Candice and Amy all went out to dinner with her one of the nights she was here and we chose to go to The Black Sheep. I had only been once a few years ago and it is a little pricier and REALLY good... so since the bill was on the company, we chose Black Sheep. Good choice if you ask me. We had fun.

And that's it. That was my week. Not my best of weeks... but hopefully I can get out of this depression soon.

Tuesday, May 16, 2017

Reanne's Jazz Band Concert

When Reanne went into Jr High, she started taking band. She plays the clarinet and the sax. She prefers the clarinet as you can see by her unhappy look in the video, but she plays both well! I had only heard her play once when she had first started. So it was really fun to see her play in the band. They are pretty good. I mean... they are in Jr. High! I was impressed. Reanne is awesome!! So glad that I was able to go. Can't wait for her fall concert.

Saturday, May 13, 2017

Relaxing up Hobble Creek Canyon

Tonight Rachel, Drew and I decided to find a spot up Hobble Creek Canyon to have a little fire and hang out. My goal is to make Rachel and Drew more outdoorsy. They both got along great too for hanging out for the first time. I mean... I'm not surprised, they are both pretty easy going and friendly. Drew was a little shy at first, but that's ok.

Rachel brought this stuff that you throw into the flame of a fire and it makes it change lots of pretty colors. It is pretty awesome. I already love to watch campfire's... this just made me want to stare even more.

It was a pretty chill night. I was so happy just to be spending time outdoors. As you know... it's my favorite. So hopefully I can convince more people to do that with me this summer.

Friday, May 12, 2017

Pedicure with the Co-Workers

A bunch of us at work were needing/wanting pedicures... so we took a longer lunch break and we went and got them. And it was wonderful.