Mr. Fantasy

So I am out with this guy... At the end of the night we end up at his place talking and snuggling. Then we kissed. After kissing for a little bit... a good night turns weird.

Mr. Fantasy: "I knew when I first met you that we would end up hooking up" (Mormon version of make out)
Me: "Really? I didn't. Why did you think that?"
Mr. Fantasy: "I could just tell by the way we looked at each other"
Me: "I don't remember giving you a special look... and from what I remember... we talked for maybe 5 minutes at a party at my house that you showed up with a mutual friend"
Mr. Fantasy: "I could just tell"
Me: "Well..... awesome"
Mr. Fantasy: " You know, when I first found out you were a massage therapist I would have fantasies..."
Me: "Ummm what?"
Mr. Fantasy: "Yeah, I would have fantasies that you would be giving a massage on your table and then we would end up hooking up on the table."
Me:  *Speechless and WEIRDED OUT*   "Oh.... interesting"

What do you say to that? If you have fantasies or not.... I am pretty sure you don't tell the other person about them.... unless you are married. ha ha. I went home shortly after this conversation.

Flashback Friday 12

Today's flashback takes us to November of 2007. My good friend Kirsten got a group of friends together to go to a Ben Lee concert in Salt Lake. I had never heard of Ben Lee before... but if my friends were going and they liked him, I knew I would like him too... plus hanging out with this group of friends was a good time in general.

Turns out... Ben Lee is awesome. He was funny and he reminds me of a Hobbit. He is from Australia, so it was fun just to hear him talk. Needless to say we all had a good time and I went home that night and downloaded a bunch of his music. I actually love being introduced to new music. Thanks guys for introducing me to Ben Lee. I LOVE concerts.

Here we are with Ben Lee & with his key board guy that we thought was pretty cute.

The Girls (Abby, Kirsten & Me)

Me with the guys (Clayton & Randy)

The whole group that went.

Confessions of a Brunette on the Internet 65

I don't know why Blogger was down.... but while it was down it deleted my post from yesterday and then re posted it and my comments are gone. Whats up with that? At least it came back.

On Saturday I played the "Connect" game system for the first time and of course danced my heart out. Its pretty awesome. You don't have to hold a controller and the dance moves get more intense. It could actually teach you how to be an awesome dancer if you let it. I am being more and more sold on these games. I think I need to sell what I have now and upgrade.

Saturday I also went to WalMart with a friend that used to be in my ward. I hardly see her anymore and we were at the same party and both of us needed to go to WalMart so we shopped while we caught up. We were talking about how we are tired of the dating game and I saw some guy all dressed up spot us in WalMart. He didn't say anything but I could tell he checked us out. As we were leaving the store and heading into the parking lot he comes out of nowhere and asks us if we got something for our mothers for Mothers day the next day. Smart way to start conversation I guess. We end up talking to this guy for like 15 minutes or so and he left with my friend's number.... as we were walking back to our car we noticed that he was not even next to his car when he stopped us to talk... so we know that he totally plotted and planned it. Too bad neither one of us were interested, but I was really happy and proud of him for making the effort that he did. More guys should do that. Maybe if more guys did that sort of thing... there would not be so many older single girls such as myself. Just sayin.

All of my cousins on my dad's side of the family came over to my parents house for Sunday dinner. I had not seen all of them in years. It was so great to see them. Just started me thinking though... I am the ONLY one on that side of the family that is not married. One of the very few on my mom's side that is not married as well. I felt like after all of these years people didn't know what to say to me. What to talk to me about. I feel like an outcast in these situations. I really try hard not to, but I do.

This week out of nowhere my computer got a virus and everything shut down. I couldn't get any work done... they put me in another office on a different computer... but everything was so different that it took me twice as long to get anything done. It was so annoying. Along with that I wasn't feeling that great this week either... I have slept a lot. All in all this week didn't completely suck... but it wasn't that great either.

I know that usually I confess about random stuff. I like to be light hearted and funny and stay positive about life when it comes to my blog...but here is a true confession. I know that to most people my life seems really great, and it is, but I am lonely. I get sad. I'm tired of fighting the same battles. Out of everyone that was at my parents house on Sunday where everyone could only think to talk to me about my job and what I do there I had one cousin that was talking to me one on one and told me that he remembered how hard it was for him to be the last one to get married and that he didn't know if it was hard for me... but it was for him. I almost started to cry. Sometimes... all I want is to be understood. For people to know that some days its harder for me to deal with than others and when I'm having a hard time, I need to talk about it. Sometimes my heart aches because I feel like I am never going to get married and I long for that companionship and desire so badly to have children of my own even though I really love my nieces and nephews. Sometimes, even though my life is great and I feel like I make the best out of what life brings me, I want people to recognize that it is hard to be single. That it would be nice to feel loved  by a guy and to have that consistency in my life. Have I been depressed this week? No. Frustrated? Yes. Discouraged? Very much so. Sometimes I feel like somewhere in my life I made a wrong turn and that things would be different for me if I had done something different. I don't know if that is true. I am not really sure what to do about it all except for keep trucking along and hope for the best. Maybe I need to go on the Mormon Bachelorette to find true love. I don't know... but I'm ready.

Sorry, don't mean to be a downer. Just how I have been feeling this week... and it wouldn't be a true confession if I didn't share that. In other words, its out of my system now, so you won't hear about it again.

Photo of the Week 63

Blue Springs in Florida. I just couldn't get enough of all that hanging moss.

Green Smoothie

I have noticed that this is kind of the trend right now for a healthy breakfast. My friend Rachel is the one that gave me this recipe and got me to try it out... however, the more I have talked to people about it, the more I hear about people drinking the same stuff. I love it. I think its a healthy, filling and delicious way to start out your day. I make it the night before so I can get up and put a straw in it and grab it on my way out the door. I just take sips all morning until its gone. (I like having it last longer... but that's just me)

I have had a few people ask me what I put in the green smoothie, so I thought I would post it here on the blog.

Green Smoothie

2 handfuls spinach
1 handful of frozen berries (no sugar added)
1 small container of honey Greek Yogurt (but you could use any flavor you like)
1/3 of a banana
1-2 Tablespoons of Flax seed
*Sometimes I add a handful of Kale*

Blend it up. Drink it up.

Pregnancy Photoshoot

Speaking of Mothers Day.... here is one of my closest friends who is a mother to be. I convinced Monica to let me do a pregnancy photoshoot of her. Here are my favorites from the shoot. I hope she likes them.

*I had to throw the picture of her eating the flowers. That is so Mo... always being silly. I love it. That is one of the many things that I love about being around her. She always makes me laugh*

Mothers Day

Happy Mothers Day to my mother, my grandmother, my sisters who are amazing mothers and all of my friends that are mothers and future mothers.

Saturday night I was driving with my friend Anne-Marie and drove by this house and saw this lighted sign. I thought it was so sweet.

At church on Sunday all the women were given flowers. It was very thoughtful and the flowers were beautiful.

The rest of the day I spent with my parents and oldest sister my dad's sister and ALL of her kids and grandkids. I had not seen my cousin in years!! So good to see them all.

Here is a poem to honor all of the wonderful mothers that I know.