Confessions of a Brunette on the Internet 282

July is over starting Saturday. It's going too quickly. Pretty soon I will have another new roommate moving in.

My roommates have both been out of town this week. It's been nice having the house to myself, but I do start to get a little lonely after a while. However... I am also a lot more productive than usual when I am by myself. Monday-today I have cleaned the kitchen, organized my pantry, went food shopping, did laundry, cleaned my bathroom, cleaned my fish tank, made a DI run, finally took my fort down (only been up for a month) and organized my room. Not too bad. I even finally started on my video of my trip to Bali and the Philippines. I know, it has taken me forever to start. It's an overwhelming project... and so will be putting together the book, but it needs to be done. I am hoping that now that I have started it will be a lot easier to keep it rolling.

I hung out with Stacey on Tuesday. It was nice to have some company for a little while. He is so busy... seems hard to keep him around for too long.

Work has been surprisingly slow since it is quarter end. I hardly did anything today and tomorrow is the last day of the quarter. That can't be a good sign for the company. Makes time go by so slow at work too. I also hate that they feed us so much during quarter end because I eat it and then I feel like crap for eating too much and stuff that isn't very healthy. This has been a BAD week for my health.

Speaking of... I'm ready to try another diet. I hate that I am always trying to diet, but I have to do something... need to do something until I find something I can do for the rest of my life and just keep the weight off. When my cousin Lisa was here she says she struggles with the same thing (although I have never thought so) and she tried medifast like me and all the weight she lost came back... like mine is... but she told me of another diet she did that she loved and worked well and she told me she would do it with me. So I just need to read the book about the science about it all and buy the stuff to make the healthy recipes and follow the plan and then I will be ready. New month is a good time to start right? I told her I would tell her when I start and then she will start with me. Hopefully having someone to be accountable to and who is doing it with me will help me stay motivated. I love Lisa. She is the best. I have been blessed with awesome cousins.... and family in general.

I was pretty disappointed this last weekend. I was super pumped to go camping with a friend and I even got off of work early and was ready to go and then she bailed on me last minute leaving me home a lone with no plans at all and not really able to make plans because everyone else already had plans. I don't get to leave work early on a Friday very often so I was pretty bummed. My neighbor Jared came over for a little while and hung out with me in the fort. Easy for me to contact him. He lives next door and I can tell when he is home because I see his truck. Then my friend Lindsay was going to the Mapleton Pioneer Day fireworks that night so I decided to join her. They seriously have the best fireworks around. Also Lindsay and I... fireworks is our thing. We tent to go see them together a lot. Saturday I did a whole lot of nothing and was starting to feel sorry for myself and depressed about it... so I just decided that I would go hike by myself. This is something that I had NEVER done before. Sure... it doesn't seem like a big deal, but it kind of was for me. I'm not super motivated to do things by myself. Anyway... I just embraced it and went for it and did the 4 hour outing by myself. I was really glad I did. Way better than sitting on my lazy but feeling sorry for myself at home. I didn't even think too much about the fact that I was by myself. It was just peaceful and quiet and I did a lot of thinking and taking pictures and I talked to a few people that were at donut falls and it wasn't bad. The one nice thing about doing things by yourself if that you are on your own time schedule. You don't have to rely on anyone else which is kind of nice. I still like hiking with others better than by myself, but at least I know now. I have tried it.

Sunday dinner was at my sister Kristy's house. She made Indian food which I love. My Aunt Sharleen was in town so Levi and his family came over too. Always fun to see and catch up with family that I don't get to see very often. I need to take another trip out to Washington to visit!

I wish I had a lot of money. People think I have a lot of money because I travel, but it's only because I travel on the cheap and I have cheap rent because of my dad (bless him) and I'm not in any debt except for my car loan now. But I am always thinking of things I want to buy. I wish I was better at saving, but I am the worst at living in the moment and impulse purchases... and some things I do need. Then there are things that would be nice and are just expensive. Like getting racks on top of my car. I bought my car with all of the bells and whistles... why didn't it come with the roof racks? Seriously. It should have. buying them on amazon and then installing them myself (aka my dad installing them for me) still cost $330. Why are they so expensive. I don't NEED to have racks on top of my car, but I want them. Why? So I can spend money on more things that I want... like a paddle board or a kayak.... for my adventure needs. I'm the worst. Why do I have to want to do everything and love to decorate and garden and learn and do all these extra hobbies. It all cost money.

I'm still watching Heartland. I have kind of come to love it. Makes me want to go ride horses. I am on the 5th season. I'm almost done because there are 6 seasons. I think I will be a little sad when it's over. I really like most of the characters. There are a few annoying ones, but I really love Jack, Ty and Amy. That means nothing to you if you have never watched the show. HA! ANYWAY. Funny thing is... I have been watching this show, this week I have been cleaning up paperwork that has been sitting on my desk for a while and I came across this! Guess I'm meant to be watching it? ha ha. That is all.